Saturday, November 9, 2013

Ocean Shell

Ocean Shell 

I look at your spiral, brown, black, white,
purple are you, you point at me with the
top of your skull, you sound like the ocean, you're 
an unfinished maze, you are infinite

you bobble on my pen
you have flesh and you are touching,
you're a spiral, you're brown, black white, purple.
you point at me, you have a skull, you own the 
sound of waves, but yet most times I just 
walk by you on the beach and don't even 
look at you.
until today, the day I notice how wonderful you 

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Giving Up

Giving Up


Giving up.
I give up.
I GAVE up.
I lost.
I won't.
I don't.
I didn't.
I couldn't.
I wish.
I wished.
I wish my wish was possible.
But it isn't.
All I've wished for.
All that hasn't come true.
All these thoughts, cloud my mind.
Thoughts of things, I've left behind.

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Ignored (poem inspired by "To This Day")

Excerpt from Shane Koyczan's To This Day:
“…so broken heart strings bled the blues
as we tried to empty ourselves
so we would feel nothing
don’t tell me that hurts less than a broken bone
that an ingrown life
is something surgeons can cut away
that there’s no way for it to metastasize (it does)
(Response to Shane Koyczan's poem To This Day):
I used to think that "shoved" and "loved" were the same thing,
I thought they were both “loved”
One day before I realized kids who are believers in health could have jelly beans held against them
I ate a jellybean.
A few hours later
the kids noticed the rainbow of colors on my face
and I earned my first nickname
jelly bean
to this day
I hate jellybeans
I'm not the only kid who grew up this way
surrounded by adults who used to think the so-called "HEALTHY" brands of jelly-beans helped kids learn to cooperate
as if the healthy brands helped with our social skills


was 7 when he joined our school
kids used to say that he cried like a two year old who had his bottle taken away
we became friends
fighting against lies that offended us or broke our hearts,
or just broke us completely
things got better
for me
only for me
kids continued to tease him 
because of a disorder 
that both gives him his brilliance and causes him to fall apart at the smallest imperfections
kids used to say
that he could cry like a two year old


was a girl with asthma
kids spoke sarcastically
​saying things like "asthma gal"
I saw her wince every time they said it

we could be the only kids who are growing up this way
unfortunately we aren't
there are hundreds of thousands of schools with this exact problem
and millions of kids that get teased 
and if your a bully
ask yourself why
why you choose to be the one who has hardly anybody actually wanting to be your friend
why you choose to tease


and if you aren't able to help

just stop causing pain
give others the help of peace 
rather than feeling the power you get when you tease others
 you'll feel like you have power because you're on a team
and rather than people feeling like they are forced to help you
they'll be on your side rather than being one of your soldiers because they're afraid 
and if you can't find anything kind about yourself,
because you were probably hurt once
but there's something strong inside your heart that made you keep fighting despite everyone who told you to stop.  
so let me ask you a question
if you were to learn that the world was going to end today...
how would YOU like to be remembered
as the bully or as the hero
as the invisible one
probably as the hero

My Crazy Summer Break Pt.1

My Crazy Summer Break Pt.1

            I can’t believe how much has happened to me in the first 5 weeks of summer break!
            Before school even let out on June 11, I was having a great time.  I had read a poem I wrote as a response to one of my favorite poems, Shane Koyzan’s To This Day.  I called my poem Ignored.  After I wrote the poem, I showed it to my teacher who thought I should share it with my class.  After I read it to the class, I had a great rest of the day with compliments from my friends and even people who I almost never even hung out with (even from some of the girls!).    
            The next day, when our school had our end of the year beach day celebration, which was more than enough to be excited about, I continued to get compliments about my poem from other students and adults that had seen a copy of the poem.
            And to top it off, on the evening of June 11, I went to my favorite spoken word event, Downbeat 720, where I performed my poem for the third time.  The community at Downbeat (mainly high school students) is so great, they all cheered.   A few weeks earlier, when I was at Downbeat 720, another poem I read prompted a hug from one of the high-school girls in the audience.   (Note: she also read a poem that night that I liked).  Here’s a picture of me with the Downbeat community, right after I read Ignored that night (that’s me in the green “Poet” shirt). 
Downbeat 720 June 11, 2013
            It was really great to have my poem so appreciated by all these people because bullying is such a big problem in schools and one that has affected me on a personal level for a long time. 
            All in all, June 11 was a GREAT end to the school year. 
            Summer break started out great too!  On June 12th  and 13th ,  I went to Fitness by the Sea, a really fun beach camp. 
            Unfortunately, after camp on June 13, I went to the doctor and found out my summer fun would be interrupted due to some medical procedures involving brain surgery (on June 15).  This meant that my family’s annual trip to our land in Hawaii had to be canceled (we made other vacation plans but more about that later).
            I’m happy to say, the surgery and my recovery went very well.  I think the amazing support I got from my friends and family had a lot to do with how fast and well I recovered!  So fast in fact, that on Summer Solstice, June 21, I went on a 2-mile hike with my friends Adam and Logan (and their dogs) and our parents.   I did great!  6 days after brain surgery!  
Temescal Canyon Solstice Hike June 21, 2013
Adam, Logan, and me, before the hike
            The other good news is that while I was in the hospital, I got a visit from a therapy dog named Cigfa and when my parents saw how loving I was with the dog (and the pressure they got from friends and family after they emailed a video of me with the dog), they decided that they would finally start seriously thinking about getting me a dog after I’ve been begging for at least 8 years, since I was 3!

            During the week after I came home from the hospital,  I started Physical Therapy to work on getting my balance back .  I also hung out with my friends, Adam, Logan, Liam, Morgan, Jimmy and Ryan.
Liam, Adam, and me at the California Science Center
My favorite Lao Tse quote
The next week I got to go on two Mastery Quest Academy field trips with Kojo Obeng, MQ founder and sensei.  MQ is a great game designed to improve kids athletic, social-emotional and cognitive skills, Here’s a link to the MQ Academy website.   The first fieldtrip was to the California Science Center, with my friends Adam and Liam.  It was really great.  My favorite thing there was the big wall with inspirational quotes, especially the one by Lao Tse: “Life on its way returns into a mist, its quickness is its quietness again.”
    The second field trip was to the Griffith Park Observatory with Adam and Kojo’s grown up nephew, JaVeon.   My favorite part of the Observatory was this big swinging ball that knocked over dominoes as it went, one domino each ten minutes.  They had enough dominoes for the whole day.   I got two really cool things at the gift shop using a “get well” gift card I got from my “Auntie” Giovanna I got a gyroscope and a perpetual motion pendulum.

Me and my parents at home on July 2.
            On the morning of July 4, I went to the Santa Monica Independence Day parade and joined the parade with my friends from school and our school float.             
It was my first year ever joining in the parade!!!

Later that afternoon we went to a family friend’s BBQ – they have a pool and a ping pong table so I swam and played ping pong!

On July 5, my parents and I went on a week long stay at a resort in Oxnard, an hour away from home.   It was really fun.  I spent a lot of time at the pool and Jacuzzi, playing ping-pong with kids I met at the resort.   My papa and I also used the treadmill and stationary bike in the fitness room.  My parents and I did a lot of walking on the beach and around the harbor there.  One afternoon we walked 4 miles!  There was a great restaurant called Italian Job, we ate there twice, once with my friend Liam and his family.  We had we had a really good margarita pizza there!

Papa and me on Hollywood Beach, Oxnard, CA
Mom and me at Channel Islands Harbor
Jacuzzi at Mandalay Embassy Suites in Oxnard, CA
On July 12, we left the hotel and headed home.  As we were driving, my papa said we were going to stop in Topanga to see my friend Liam and his family.  When we got to Topanga, he said we were going to their friend’s house to see Liam.  When we got to the house, I got out and knocked on the door and a woman opened the door and a cute cuddly puppy came out from behind her wearing a bow! At first I thought she was for me (because of the bow) but when I asked I was told she just wanted to look pretty. But then my mom asked me “do you think that’s really why she’s wearing that bow?” and that was when I realized… that puppy was for me!  And that’s just how it happened.  One moment I was a kid who wanted a dog, but didn’t have one.  The next moment I was a kid who had a dog and I was falling in love!  Here she is:
Me and my new puppy, right when I first got her....
...and here she is with her newly minted name tag - "Poet"
Poet with the whole world in her paws
Later, I found out she was rescued as she was about to be dropped off at a shelter.  For the last week, she’s been cuddling me and I love it.  She’s so warm and whenever I sit next to her she’ll lick me.  Whenever I lie next to her, she’ll lick me.  Every day I have someone who I can play with.  I couldn’t really do that with my cat.  The best thing about having a dog is that you know that you’ve got a friend for life!

So, I’m doing great right now and I just want to thank everybody for how kind you all have been.  Thank you and hope to see you soon!




Sunday, April 7, 2013



I don't have any ideas,
My brain is filled with junk!
I don't have any ideas,
I got hypnotized,
By a skunk!

The odor was overly strong,
I couldn't have lasted long,
But I'm still here,
after all, I was here all along!

I've been here ever since that awful skunk
put me to sleep with an awfully smelly and loud song!

Now I realize that the skunk, the one that hypnotized me with his awful junk,
was on my team all along,
By hypnotizing me with his awful junk (that awful hypnotist, awful skunk)
with the awful junk, to fuel my mind, to make this poem that smells like something you'd find...

In a dumpster filled with trash, a smelly, icky, yucky mash,
that smells like gravy and some wine
and something that is the exact opposite
of fine.

Age 10 November 2012